农历新年没得回家, 有种难言的失落感，似乎失去了些什么。 失去了建桥梁的美好机会，买不回来。
My quickly-growing sister (unexpectedly) tweeted: "CNY is never gonna be the same without my sister. @jasmineyow faster teleport back home!"
Then my mum whatsapp-ed me the following:
Some interesting conversation at lunch today:
JN: Mum, r we having reunion meal?
JN: How come our reunion meal is almost like what we eat every day?
Me: That’s because you have been eating good food every day!
Eugene: I volunteer to help.
Me: Help to do what?
Eugene: Help to wrap my own angpau!!
Pa: The abalone is good.
Eugene: It doesn’t taste special to me. Mum, please please please fry egg with cheese for me tonight.
That’s us! We miss u!! And I am going to continue cooking and answering phone calls on cooking tips from aunty Teresa and Ee Ee!!
So normal, yet so precious. My heart aches…at the fragility of what I know of home; of missed experiences lost forever; and at the thought of…hurt, healing and hope.